I am not a doormat. I will not let anyone walk all over me like people have done to me before time and time again. I’m used to it now because yeah, I was a little ignorant in the past, and that’s kind of sad but I’m determined not to let it happen anymore.
If someone does something wrong I will tell them because I sure as hell know I won’t say “that’s ok” or “don’t worry about it” anymore when it isn’t ok and they should probably worry about it, because look where it’s got me. I used to be a pushover. Saying things like that just tells the other person that I’m not bothered by it and it allows them to do it again because they think they can get away with it. But those days are over. I’m stronger than I was before so you need to be good to me.
Stop giving me excuses.
I want people to stop giving me excuses when really they don’t want to see me. If they’re busy they should just tell me instead of just cancelling plans last minute. I’m cool if someone doesn’t want to see me but I just wish that they didn’t cancel plans last minute with silly and cliché excuses.
If someone tells me that they are too busy to see me, I may or may not believe them. If I truly know someone is busy then fair play but if I see them on Facebook when they are supposed to be busy it’s game over for you, my friend. You just earned your place on the “don’t ever speak to me again” pile. Well done, congratulations *slow clap*. Everyone has time, and if someone actually liked me they’d find time to spend with me, even like an hour.
I’m done with pretending I’m ok with the excuses I have been given in the past. I’m kind of tired of it and a little bit pissed off if I’m being honest.
I want to feel like I am worthy of someone else’s time.
I want to feel like I am worthy of someone else’s effort instead of it being the other way around all the time because I am always, without exception, the one who puts in the most effort. I am always the one who cares too much and always the one who falls too fast, too hard. And it’s not fair. I don’t want someone to put 50% effort into me when I put in 100%. I don’t want to be with someone who is half-hearted in everything they do. Can’t it be 100/100%? I’m not going to settle for less so don’t think for a minute that I will. I feel like that should be the standard for every relationship. I know what I want and I know what’s right and wrong. I want someone else to go out of their way for me once in a while because that would be nice.
I don’t want to feel like I am being taken for granted because that’s not a great feeling. I don’t want to be used anymore because I am not a pushover. I deserve to be treated with respect like everyone else around here. I’m a pretty laid back person but that doesn’t mean that I am someone who can be screwed over. My limits have been pushed too much. So much so that I have come to my senses and I am ready to fight back. No one will be able to take advantage of me now because I am setting boundaries and valuing myself over anyone else. I am enough, and if you can’t see that then you can’t be around me.